“Into the woods, by the water, in the weeds.
Beneath a dark blanket of trees.
Soul is tired saving self…
Some lives here are worse than death.”
One of my trail photos. I feel welcome there most of all.
By the water, In the weeds.
Song Release -Possession
Original song mixed / mastered. My favorite from the next album of songs and so fitting for my current state and times.
Lyrics
Before stepping off the ledge,
Screams every moment was hell.
“Never give up!” didn’t save this one
If so little were enough.
The sordid goodwill of the rest.
Forget what better angel says.
Take ownership of the cruel intent.
You favor leaving all for dead.
Yes, we take what we can get.
No spill of blood carries regret.
Go too far – over your head,
But keep going. Devil knows best.
Possession – a wish for death.
Far better fit than human.
Deeper go cuts than bruises.
A use given to useless.
The sordid goodwill of the rest.
Forget what better angel says.
Take ownership of the cruel intent.
You favor leaving all for dead.
Before stepping off the ledge,
You scream every moment was hell.
“Never give up!” didn’t save this one.
So little is never enough.
The sordid goodwill of the rest.
Forget what better angel says.
Take ownership of the cruel intent.
You favor leaving all for dead.
Before stepping off the ledge,
Screams every moment was hell.
“Never give up!” didn’t save this one
So little is never enough.
A Farewell Too Soon
I had to say goodbye to someone very important to me today. Didn’t expect it but knew I’d have to face a farewell eventually. It’s been nearly a decade and this hurts, but I dearly wish them well.
The Cooling
This year for me has been about wrapping up loose ends and finishing what I’ve spent enough time burdened by. A definite mission to live the way I need to in this time and space or not at all. There is enough courage for the risk. Move forward.
Sunrise or Sunset?
The latest painting I finished using a landscape photo book as reference. That small sun was tricky, but I like how it turned out overall.
How Indeed – guitar / voice original
I wrote this song leading up to my departure from a very toxic work environment that changed me in ways I wish it hadn’t.
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Chose not to remember.
Won’t thank you for what you gave.
How indeed I’ve made it.
Kept myself an empty space.
Of course there is no knowing. But then again, there is.
Nothing about what I am was made for the surface.
Every breath scrapes the vessel walls, worn thin.
This unwilling arrival. The way hell was forced in.
Refuse weighing down my bones –
Voice bending bloody tones-
Quiet obedience set flames to all I know.
The sickness has grown bold.
Not about to say it’s okay, making it this far.
Not the heinous crime I needed stabbing at my heart.
Not about to say it’s settled and life is just too hard.
I implore the soul of all creation: tear this world apart.
Tear us apart.
I will not remember and never took what you gave.
How indeed I make it.
Keep myself an empty space.
Cold of the Earth
Cold of the Earth
Leave me where I stop.
Forget my beating heart as I lean into the drop.
Wanted as much as I never am alive.
Continue me, out of sight, out of mind.
The human ruin brought to life.
Pierce my skin. The blood will cry
I don’t matter. I am alone.
And all I ever wanted. Collect my bones.
Soul in the dark, you have my dream.
Cold of the earth has a place for me.
All the wants and needs and ways you try.
To bear failure and grieve is why.
Just continue me out of sight, out of mind.
Out of every single reason left to survive.
Soul in the dark, you have my dream.
Cold of the earth has a place for me.
https://allysonmarie.bandcamp.com/
Tie-Dyed
The latest batch of shirts I dyed last month. Most have been given away now, but I have enough supplies left to try another few if I get the energy one day before summer is out. We’ll see.
A Mighty Price – piano & voice
A Mighty Price – https://youtu.be/OwX39um73_0 – This song has been done for many weeks, but recording had to wait until my class was finished & the room was finished and I’d settled in on my new job. Took a while, but I’m glad to say I’m not quite finished with music. Lyrics at the youtube link if you’d like.
Fiery Sky
This was an open arch wood piece when I bought it. I spray painted black with white, covered the back with box cardboard I prepped white, then filled in with coffee filter paper I colored and clear coated in gloss. Love how it turned out.
Allyson Marie Arts 