Remember This Age – Original song Vocal / Guitar

I’m playing my guitar again. This is the first of two new songs. Not sure I’ll keep the title but whatever. Lyrics are below.

An awful shame to witness. 
Even God turns away. 
Lonesome soul drifting the dark, I need you to be saved. 

Just look how far you go.
How deep the blade sinks in.
Pretending you’re not lower than you’ve ever been. 

Where far enough is death. 
Where spill your veins fills up your head. 
So deep the blade sinks in. Lower than you’ve ever been.

Take me back, I beg you. Remember this age.
I have the faith your looking for. 
When life was not all pain.

Take me back, I beg you. Remember my face. 
The love you were deserving of 
Has not and will not change.

Take me back, I beg you. Remember this age.
I have the faith you’re dying for.
When life was not all hate.

Take me back, I beg you. Remember my face
I have the faith you’re dying for. 
Believe it’s not too late. It’s not too late. 

Original song “You Shun Me”

“To know me seems an unspeakable demand.” – I wrote this while thinking about how at 31 I ended up friendless and blatantly ignored by the people I do exist around. I try to reach out and it’s always a dead end. Best thing I could do was write a song about this constant and try to ignore how it won’t change. People aren’t the reason I choose to keep living.

A rose.

This was a gift I drew and colored for my mother’s birthday along with 2 CDs and money since I had a hard time figuring out what to get her this year…lol Just used markers.

Pop-up flower cards

I’ve never made a collage with Photoshop before, so today I googled how and made a collage with some of the pop-up flower cards I made and recently mailed out. I have more photos of other card designs so I will make another, better one, but this was fun. By the way, I make so many of these cards that I send them at random now. If anyone viewing this wants one, shoot me a message where I can mail to.

The Final Say – Original song

“Hate all you want to hate, I have the final say”… I wrote this last year as I processed a response I received about my music. Someone mistakenly assumed I had the same insecurities about my voice that they lived with and it got me thinking about all the times we have to endure unasked for critiques of our art. I don’t go around looking for people to tell them how bad I think their work is. It’s truly going out of my way to do that. If you don’t like something, I say keep it moving until you find something worth your time and comment…lol Anyway, I’m happy with this piece and the challenge it was to record performing it and I want to share.

On My Worst Days – voice/piano

This videos is a few months old and the song, several years old, but I wanted a better video performing it. Most of my song lyrics are reworked lines right out of my journals. Years back when I was still looking for work, my days were spent writing little songs like this at my piano to pass the time and help me keep my sanity for being alone so many hours.

Holding on.

My heart has been heavy lately. I don’t know what I’m doing here or what is in store, or why it brings so much dread to consider these questions (should be no wonder when looking at the world we live in), but I still hope for clarity and strength within to endure whatever is finally revealed for me to act upon. And it is time for action now.

This picture is the cover of a card I made for my mother some weeks back, just because I love making people cards and I love her especially.