“To know me seems an unspeakable demand.” – I wrote this while thinking about how at 31 I ended up friendless and blatantly ignored by the people I do exist around. I try to reach out and it’s always a dead end. Best thing I could do was write a song about this constant and try to ignore how it won’t change. People aren’t the reason I choose to keep living.
Tag: piano
The Final Say – Original song
“Hate all you want to hate, I have the final say”… I wrote this last year as I processed a response I received about my music. Someone mistakenly assumed I had the same insecurities about my voice that they lived with and it got me thinking about all the times we have to endure unasked for critiques of our art. I don’t go around looking for people to tell them how bad I think their work is. It’s truly going out of my way to do that. If you don’t like something, I say keep it moving until you find something worth your time and comment…lol Anyway, I’m happy with this piece and the challenge it was to record performing it and I want to share.
On My Worst Days – voice/piano
This videos is a few months old and the song, several years old, but I wanted a better video performing it. Most of my song lyrics are reworked lines right out of my journals. Years back when I was still looking for work, my days were spent writing little songs like this at my piano to pass the time and help me keep my sanity for being alone so many hours.
Collective Sick
New 2021 song/video. Coping with life through song is the best way I could ask for right now. There is so much misery of all sorts in this world I wish I could do more to ease. I’m tired of watching those in a position to do more make the choice again and again not to.
No Saving You Now
Recorded this song on a hot day back in September last year. The subject relates to the routine of how I experience the jobs I’ve had and the people I’ve seen along side me. The wearing away of the spirit in ways and how little things change or get better over time in dealing with people in charge.
You Have My Wings
You Have My Wings – I recorded this video about 2 months ago. The song is 7+ years old. Something I just wanted to share as I go through other old demos and see what I might want to re-work some day when there is time again. Free recorded version: https://allysonmarie.bandcamp.com/track/you-have-my-wings
In Descent
This song is 10+ years old. Studio version is about 2yrs old now and has added bells…lol and backing vocals. I wish I could do more and be better. Some things will just always be out of my reach and I’m still figuring out how to live with that: https://open.spotify.com/track/2tZoHqj7Wrc2dCvFsgR7jk?si=8258beaaf3c04476
Moment to Moment
An old poem I put to music last year. This was tough to record a performance of, but kept practicing and I liked this shot best to share.
Disgust For the Whole-Piano / voice
I haven’t recorded this song yet and not set on a title either, but this is a demo. I cut some of the original lyrics and set them aside for something darker. What’s left was a better fit for a piano based arrangement.
Giving Notice – Original song 2020
I wrote this back in April / May, recorded the video about 2 weeks ago.
