These are small paintings I worked on several months ago trying to get back into painting again. I always enjoyed working on abstract eye images and thought it could help me gain something of a spark back to creating.
All In the Eyes
Tag: art
All it could be…
New skull art I had an idea about and had to follow through. I haven’t been doing the best with my art or otherwise for the past few months. Each attempt is still forced and I’m still hoping this will ease and I can come to enjoy the messy parts about starting new projects again as I used to.
I see it coming.
I shot photos of these as they were drying and like how the glistening of the water shows up.
The past few weeks have been a challenge. On-boarding for a new job and the process was hell (forcing me to track down high school transcripts despite my diploma which took weeks among other things). I’m not sure the company is right for me now, but if I can start this week as scheduled and see how it actually is, I’ll probably feel better in trying to stick it out. I hope so. Job searching has been soul crushing and not in the best interest of my recovery. The less time I need to give it the better.
Softly As A Sunburst
Slowly getting back to editing my trail photos. I’ll add more to my shop as I go. Beyond that…I’m really enjoying the new Evanescence album Sanctuary. It offers safety where I’ve become so frustrated with my life and the strange, uncomfortable thing it feels like to me right now. So anyway. New music of my own finally coming together in an album soon too. Good work to keep me busy.
The Good with the Bad
These are the pieces I worked on while on medical leave from my previous job from the end of March and all through April. I started a new position a week ago doing something totally different. It’s for half the pay and in a warehouse environment, but I think I’m where I need to be for the time being. A job is a job and so far no one is mistreating me. As for the art, I allowed myself to be messy to see where new ideas would take me. I got the spark I needed.
“To Save Oneself”
“To Save Oneself” A collage on a cardboard bust I got from an antique store maybe 10 years ago now. It’s a companion piece to the “Survival Hurts” collage from last year.
Alone is alone.
I went off the regular trail, down to the water. Shots from here have made for some great new prints.
I’m at the beginning of medical leave from work. When death becomes the only sure rescue from what your mind endures, I’d say it’s beyond burnout. I wish I’d said something sooner, but we’re trained to minimize problems and suffer on and on no matter what. Now I don’t care what happens to me, for what I’ll miss or for what’s left unfinished. I have a long way back.
In the Eye of…
This painting was finished a few days before I learned my father died back in November. The sketch I’d thought was going in the trash, but I forced myself to follow through with it. I hope one day to understand what it means.
To Move Past Life
My birthday came and went this year. It’s settled in just how much of an afterthought I am to others in this life. There has never been much of an effort to remember me. My 36th year will be for letting go, forgetting more, leaving behind what disturbs my soul too much and wrapping up my long term plans. We get tired of always needing a reason.
All Seeing
Paper collage. I was trying out a different layout and coloring technique. Didn’t turn out as planned, but I still like it.
