And never will work…

41442819602_ba3885bd4a– You tell me “Let go.
God will show. Have some hope. Be grateful.”
But I know it never did and never will work.
I feel cold. I sink low.
The shadow of fear grows.
There is no way to hold without hurt.
It never was and never will be worth
one more day. –

There is no point. Why suffer the loneliness anymore when I have a chance to decide when it ends? I really want it to end.