So far in my experience, when I’ve been at the lowest and let it be known, people seem to go out of their way to make it worse, as if to say go ahead and jump. So, I am grateful I don’t rely on people “saving” me from the suicidal depressions I fall into from time to time. This song is about more than just this exactly, but was an idea that sparked my writing. This video is from 2-3 months back.
My entry for the Tiny Desk contest was accepted!! I was saving this one specifically for 2021, after I missed the deadline for another song last year…lol No expectations of winning, but it’s the first time I’ve entered a contest for singing original material. And I just wanted to share the message of the song.
“Hate all you want to hate, I have the final say”… I wrote this last year as I processed a response I received about my music. Someone mistakenly assumed I had the same insecurities about my voice that they lived with and it got me thinking about all the times we have to endure unasked for critiques of our art. I don’t go around looking for people to tell them how bad I think their work is. It’s truly going out of my way to do that. If you don’t like something, I say keep it moving until you find something worth your time and comment…lol Anyway, I’m happy with this piece and the challenge it was to record performing it and I want to share.
This videos is a few months old and the song, several years old, but I wanted a better video performing it. Most of my song lyrics are reworked lines right out of my journals. Years back when I was still looking for work, my days were spent writing little songs like this at my piano to pass the time and help me keep my sanity for being alone so many hours.
So different from my other songs and I loved arranging this one for the challenge it was. Initially I was going to leave it without vocals, but I had lyrics I’d written around the end of the year that seemed to fall into place perfectly with the sound so I went with it.
New 2021 song/video. Coping with life through song is the best way I could ask for right now. There is so much misery of all sorts in this world I wish I could do more to ease. I’m tired of watching those in a position to do more make the choice again and again not to.
I wrote this song when I was 17 and just wanted to play it again. The words won’t make any sense but neither did I at 17…lol Free studio version https://allysonmarie.bandcamp.com/track/the-cold-2
You Have My Wings – I recorded this video about 2 months ago. The song is 7+ years old. Something I just wanted to share as I go through other old demos and see what I might want to re-work some day when there is time again. Free recorded version: https://allysonmarie.bandcamp.com/track/you-have-my-wings
This song is 10+ years old. Studio version is about 2yrs old now and has added bells…lol and backing vocals. I wish I could do more and be better. Some things will just always be out of my reach and I’m still figuring out how to live with that: https://open.spotify.com/track/2tZoHqj7Wrc2dCvFsgR7jk?si=8258beaaf3c04476
An old poem I put to music last year. This was tough to record a performance of, but kept practicing and I liked this shot best to share.