I tie-dyed the shirt I’m wearing in this video and wish I hadn’t had to cut the sleeves off after a mess up with the scissors… This song is not about abuse from a partner, but I wrote it with the abusive language I hear from leadership at my job all the time in mind. The studio version I put together has background vocals https://open.spotify.com/track/3Bq3ibqY7xjPnhPQ99AQRw?si=ee454d7085dc4dfa
Not a new piece, but one I still like. There is new art and photos I just haven’t had time to gather and edit yet and it’s all coming second to finishing the music I can’t leave undone. One more set to sort through. I think I’m quitting. I can’t live without singing, but I just may not share it anymore. It’s so much work on my own and who cares anyway. The songs are what they are and I’ve done enough proving to myself there is worth, even if I’m the only one to realize it.
An early song I remember writing after a day at work years ago that left me feeling pretty hopeless. Just wanted to sing it again.
So far in my experience, when I’ve been at the lowest and let it be known, people seem to go out of their way to make it worse, as if to say go ahead and jump. So, I am grateful I don’t rely on people “saving” me from the suicidal depressions I fall into from time to time. This song is about more than just this exactly, but was an idea that sparked my writing. This video is from 2-3 months back.
My entry for the Tiny Desk contest was accepted!! I was saving this one specifically for 2021, after I missed the deadline for another song last year…lol No expectations of winning, but it’s the first time I’ve entered a contest for singing original material. And I just wanted to share the message of the song.
“Hate all you want to hate, I have the final say”… I wrote this last year as I processed a response I received about my music. Someone mistakenly assumed I had the same insecurities about my voice that they lived with and it got me thinking about all the times we have to endure unasked for critiques of our art. I don’t go around looking for people to tell them how bad I think their work is. It’s truly going out of my way to do that. If you don’t like something, I say keep it moving until you find something worth your time and comment…lol Anyway, I’m happy with this piece and the challenge it was to record performing it and I want to share.
This videos is a few months old and the song, several years old, but I wanted a better video performing it. Most of my song lyrics are reworked lines right out of my journals. Years back when I was still looking for work, my days were spent writing little songs like this at my piano to pass the time and help me keep my sanity for being alone so many hours.
So different from my other songs and I loved arranging this one for the challenge it was. Initially I was going to leave it without vocals, but I had lyrics I’d written around the end of the year that seemed to fall into place perfectly with the sound so I went with it.
New 2021 song/video. Coping with life through song is the best way I could ask for right now. There is so much misery of all sorts in this world I wish I could do more to ease. I’m tired of watching those in a position to do more make the choice again and again not to.