Tag: guitar

Like Its Deserved – NPR Tiny Desk 2026

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My first for the contest with acoustic guitar. Not perfect but I needed to share it. The video was recorded last year before life got so chaotic. I want to return to songwriting the way I did before 2025 happened. Lyrics :

Ever mindful of the ache. A feeling as a fact.
When you say tolerate this getting nowhere fast.
And it hurts like its deserved.
Like death to all you are and ever were, ever were.

What can I do? Where can I go
Beyond this breath – this blood and bone?
Never worth it. Not my turn.
No one willing. Loveless learned.

And it hurts like its deserved.
Given losing lost my nerve.

Why stay for the end? For better never born?
Survival of moments. Life is nothing more.
Why stay for the end? Failure fills up to pour.
Survival of moments. Life is nothing more.

And it hurts like nothing worse.
Like death to all you are and ever were, ever were.
It always hurts.
Always hurts.
It always hurts.
And always deserved.
Always deserved.

How Indeed – guitar / voice original

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I wrote this song leading up to my departure from a very toxic work environment that changed me in ways I wish it hadn’t.

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Chose not to remember.
Won’t thank you for what you gave.
How indeed I’ve made it.
Kept myself an empty space.

Of course there is no knowing. But then again, there is.
Nothing about what I am was made for the surface.
Every breath scrapes the vessel walls, worn thin.
This unwilling arrival. The way hell was forced in.
Refuse weighing down my bones –
Voice bending bloody tones-
Quiet obedience set flames to all I know.
The sickness has grown bold.
Not about to say it’s okay, making it this far.
Not the heinous crime I needed stabbing at my heart.
Not about to say it’s settled and life is just too hard.
I implore the soul of all creation: tear this world apart.
Tear us apart.

I will not remember and never took what you gave.
How indeed I make it.
Keep myself an empty space.

Remember This Age – Original song Vocal / Guitar

Posted on by Allyson

I’m playing my guitar again. This is the first of two new songs. Not sure I’ll keep the title but whatever. Lyrics are below. 

An awful shame to witness. 
Even God turns away. 
Lonesome soul drifting the dark, I need you to be saved. 

Just look how far you go.
How deep the blade sinks in.
Pretending you’re not lower than you’ve ever been. 

Where far enough is death. 
Where spill your veins fills up your head. 
So deep the blade sinks in. Lower than you’ve ever been.

Take me back, I beg you. Remember this age.
I have the faith your looking for. 
When life was not all pain.

Take me back, I beg you. Remember my face. 
The love you were deserving of 
Has not and will not change.

Take me back, I beg you. Remember this age.
I have the faith you’re dying for.
When life was not all hate.

Take me back, I beg you. Remember my face
I have the faith you’re dying for. 
Believe it’s not too late. It’s not too late.