Art, Photos, Music, some thoughts…
What is it like to grieve the better person you were and may have become? These songs were written while navigating a very difficult transition with much loss. I was changed in ways I wish I hadn’t been. This album is the sound of a soul healing with unsightly scars, but healing nonetheless.
Bandcamp: https://allysonmarie.bandcamp.com/album/the-taken-life
Spotify : https://open.spotify.com/album/2Z2N5lC0L8bolkH7lAKDvK?si=clftE_6FS_S–ncBTiEtgg
“Into the woods, by the water, in the weeds.
Beneath a dark blanket of trees.
Soul is tired saving self…
Some lives here are worse than death.”
One of my trail photos. I feel welcome there most of all.
Original song mixed / mastered. My favorite from the next album of songs and so fitting for my current state and times.
Lyrics
Before stepping off the ledge,
Screams every moment was hell.
“Never give up!” didn’t save this one
If so little were enough.
The sordid goodwill of the rest.
Forget what better angel says.
Take ownership of the cruel intent.
You favor leaving all for dead.
Yes, we take what we can get.
No spill of blood carries regret.
Go too far – over your head,
But keep going. Devil knows best.
Possession – a wish for death.
Far better fit than human.
Deeper go cuts than bruises.
A use given to useless.
The sordid goodwill of the rest.
Forget what better angel says.
Take ownership of the cruel intent.
You favor leaving all for dead.
Before stepping off the ledge,
You scream every moment was hell.
“Never give up!” didn’t save this one.
So little is never enough.
The sordid goodwill of the rest.
Forget what better angel says.
Take ownership of the cruel intent.
You favor leaving all for dead.
Before stepping off the ledge,
Screams every moment was hell.
“Never give up!” didn’t save this one
So little is never enough.
I had to say goodbye to someone very important to me today. Didn’t expect it but knew I’d have to face a farewell eventually. It’s been nearly a decade and this hurts, but I dearly wish them well.
This year for me has been about wrapping up loose ends and finishing what I’ve spent enough time burdened by. A definite mission to live the way I need to in this time and space or not at all. There is enough courage for the risk. Move forward.
The latest painting I finished using a landscape photo book as reference. That small sun was tricky, but I like how it turned out overall.
The latest batch of shirts I dyed last month. Most have been given away now, but I have enough supplies left to try another few if I get the energy one day before summer is out. We’ll see.
A Mighty Price – https://youtu.be/OwX39um73_0 – This song has been done for many weeks, but recording had to wait until my class was finished & the room was finished and I’d settled in on my new job. Took a while, but I’m glad to say I’m not quite finished with music. Lyrics at the youtube link if you’d like.
This was an open arch wood piece when I bought it. I spray painted black with white, covered the back with box cardboard I prepped white, then filled in with coffee filter paper I colored and clear coated in gloss. Love how it turned out.
A small canvas skull painting, the first completed of 2024. Last year put me through it and making it to the next with such a changed perspective is a gift I paid a high cost, but that’s that. The coward in me will be put to death at every turn this year. No more suffering.
Allyson Marie Arts 