Yesterday, Oct 25th was my 32nd birthday. I recorded this vid last year around my 31st and just held onto it. The song will be in a collection one day but in the meantime, I listen to it as a reminder ever so often that I have felt good about my life before and do have reasons to stay. Even when it all seems extremely insignificant, it’s still true right? Still true.
Author: Allyson
Promise Me Forever Ends
I get frustrated when trying to select a genre for my music, but for some reason dark “Folk “popped into mind after I finished this song. It spells out my hopelessness when I think on society and my place here thoroughly. Grateful to have music to put the emotion and rage to work somehow.
The Abuse Here -Original song
I tie-dyed the shirt I’m wearing in this video and wish I hadn’t had to cut the sleeves off after a mess up with the scissors… This song is not about abuse from a partner, but I wrote it with the abusive language I hear from leadership at my job all the time in mind. The studio version I put together has background vocals https://open.spotify.com/track/3Bq3ibqY7xjPnhPQ99AQRw?si=ee454d7085dc4dfa
Portrait Page Update
I updated the portraits page here with the painted collection I did a few years ago. This one is an interpretation from a cool photo of Cammie Gilbert, lead singer for Oceans of Slumber. Her tattoo in that reference photo was a lot more detail than I could even see so I improvised a tattoo and moved on…lol
Undecided – Piano /Voice
“I’m fine.”
Painting Rocks!…LoL
Rocks that I painted over the past 2 months. I finally had time to try another collage in photoshop. Some of these rocks were painted freehand and the rest I drew for better detail before painting.
Keeping open mind.
Not a new piece, but one I still like. There is new art and photos I just haven’t had time to gather and edit yet and it’s all coming second to finishing the music I can’t leave undone. One more set to sort through. I think I’m quitting. I can’t live without singing, but I just may not share it anymore. It’s so much work on my own and who cares anyway. The songs are what they are and I’ve done enough proving to myself there is worth, even if I’m the only one to realize it.
Onus – Piano / Voice original song
An early song I remember writing after a day at work years ago that left me feeling pretty hopeless. Just wanted to sing it again.
Field and Flowers
This is painted on an opened brown paper bag. The edges were irregular, but I painted without clipping them and just cropped it here. This is thumb-tacked onto the wall next to my office corner. I’m working from home for the time being and love the wall of tissue paper flowers and now this new painting added. It’s a nice escape looking over at them throughout the hours of my day.
Original song – To Bystanders – piano/voice
So far in my experience, when I’ve been at the lowest and let it be known, people seem to go out of their way to make it worse, as if to say go ahead and jump. So, I am grateful I don’t rely on people “saving” me from the suicidal depressions I fall into from time to time. This song is about more than just this exactly, but was an idea that sparked my writing. This video is from 2-3 months back.
Allyson Marie Arts 