Author: Allyson

How Indeed – guitar / voice original

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I wrote this song leading up to my departure from a very toxic work environment that changed me in ways I wish it hadn’t.

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Chose not to remember.
Won’t thank you for what you gave.
How indeed I’ve made it.
Kept myself an empty space.

Of course there is no knowing. But then again, there is.
Nothing about what I am was made for the surface.
Every breath scrapes the vessel walls, worn thin.
This unwilling arrival. The way hell was forced in.
Refuse weighing down my bones –
Voice bending bloody tones-
Quiet obedience set flames to all I know.
The sickness has grown bold.
Not about to say it’s okay, making it this far.
Not the heinous crime I needed stabbing at my heart.
Not about to say it’s settled and life is just too hard.
I implore the soul of all creation: tear this world apart.
Tear us apart.

I will not remember and never took what you gave.
How indeed I make it.
Keep myself an empty space.

Cold of the Earth

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Cold of the Earth

Leave me where I stop.
Forget my beating heart as I lean into the drop.
Wanted as much as I never am alive.
Continue me, out of sight, out of mind.

The human ruin brought to life.
Pierce my skin. The blood will cry
I don’t matter. I am alone.
And all I ever wanted. Collect my bones.

Soul in the dark, you have my dream.
Cold of the earth has a place for me.

All the wants and needs and ways you try.
To bear failure and grieve is why.
Just continue me out of sight, out of mind.
Out of every single reason left to survive.

Soul in the dark, you have my dream.
Cold of the earth has a place for me.

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Fiery Sky

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This was an open arch wood piece when I bought it. I spray painted black with white, covered the back with box cardboard I prepped white, then filled in with coffee filter paper I colored and clear coated in gloss. Love how it turned out.

“Be As the Water” – Tiny Desk 2024.

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My contest entry has been accepted 🙂 I wasn’t planning to enter this year, but I wrote this and felt it had the right energy this time, It’s a reminder to myself to be as present and open as I can be, while I can. I think it’s a message worth sharing. If you listen, thank you and I hope you enjoy. Poem below.

Be As the Water

No, the river rising won’t mind the flood.
Like arms of the ocean, to the sky every open.
Given good and bad, it fills up in love.
Any and all and more than enough.

What lessons? To accept this life gave what you need.
The good and bad equal the meaningful between.
So be as the water ever open to the sky.
Forget how you got here. Forget you asked why.
Why? Why? Why? No reason at all.

Tomorrow is yesterday, over and done.
To be is all purpose could ever want.
However you got here is with a goodbye,
Sure as the loss as each moment here dies.

So be as the water ever open to the sky.
Forget how you got here. Forget you ask why.
Why? Why? No reason at all.

Link to browse all the other cool contest entries this year: https://tinydeskcontest.npr.org/2024/browse-2024/